old country house blog

THE FIRST DAY OF THE LAST YEAR

TATE ON THE FIRST DAY OF FIRST GRADE - THE ROSE CEREMONY
September 2003 -TATE ON THE FIRST DAY OF FIRST GRADE –  THE ROSE CEREMONY

Today I find myself at a loss for words. It is as if I have used them all up. I do not lie when I tell you I feel like he just got here. I know HE feels like time has dragged and dragged and that FINALLY he is at the end of his long long journey through school….but I only just digested the fact that his voice changed a few years ago That he shaves.

Parenting, for me anyway, exists in the absence of reflection . Every action I have taken has been for that moment and no time can be afforded to look back..sum it all up…take stock. It all just HAPPENS. I suppose one day…I will have time to pour over the photo albums and boxes of artwork…to look back but right now there is always something new to take it’s place and life keeps on keepin on.

…..so here we are and my little boy is all grown up and a Senior in High School. I could no more fast forward to 18 years from his birth than I can NOW imagine him 36 years old …18 years from now… and while I feel essentially the same as I did the day he arrived , give or take a few wrinkles and pounds… He has grown a lifetimes worth. His skinny 7 pound one ounce self is now a Handsome young man. It makes me just this side of dizzy. I can simply sigh and say Thanks.

This year will be one of BIG BIG changes. I cannot wait to see how it unfolds…and yet…I do not want the time to pass too swiftly. Buckle up and away we go!

mysenior

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...

5 thoughts on “THE FIRST DAY OF THE LAST YEAR

  1. I have followed your blog for forever and a day, love it- love your style, love your spirit… I’m just not a big blog commenter. But this post, this one connected on such a fundamental level for me. With a 12 year old who I swear was just yesterday a preschooler, and a 9 year old who I can still see as a toddler, I feel like you wrote these words straight to me. I too parent and live in the moment, so I never really notice time passing by. Not until it stands in front of me in pants that are yet again way too short, and runs off independently to bike over to a friends or tackle really hard homework on its own. Then the passing of these days, months, years hits me like a ton of bricks. The now of who my kids are (and of who I am) is so awesome…but I’d also love to turn things back and get one more little boy hug. Thanks so much for all you share!

  2. Waldorf? My son graduated last year and is now starting his sophomore year of college, but I remember his rose ceremony like it was yesterday.

    1. YES! We attended Waldorf through 5th grade..8 amazing years and one of my favorite traditions was the rose ceremony…I loved all the traditions and the rhythms of waldorf…very special years.

Leave a Reply to Cecilia Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.