I was so naive. I thought that by the time my firstborn graduated High School I would have WAY more figured out, when in fact, life baffles me more than ever. Most of my life is as clear as the images seen from a moving train…they fly past me and I am hard pressed to grab one much less make sense of it ANY OF IT.
What I do know is that life keeps going…like the moving train…and whether or not you choose consciously or by circumstance to hop off and PROCESS a bit of it…is all up to you. Right now..I am in the LIVING car…moving, doing, feeling and creating. Thank goodness for photos that freeze moments in time, making them seem slower and more articulate than they do in person.
I plan to take a lot of photos tomorrow, as I watch my boy in his wrinkled blue gown and awkward cap…I plan to shoot away while the moments…surreal as they may be…fly past me…I am certain I will be flooded…with memories…..
his first day of Pre K with Cooper watching forlorn from the window….
THE WALDORF FIRST GRADE ROSE CEREMONY…SO BEAUTIFUL AND SYMBOLIC…
ALL THE WAY THROUGH….SO MANY FIRST DAYS…HE DID EVERYTHING “FIRST”
MY DAD GAVE TATE A DOGWOOD TREE SAPLING FOR HIS FIRST BIRTHDAY AND WE PLANTED IT IN THE FRONT YARD OF OUR OLD HOUSE….
LIFE KEEPS GOING AND GROWING AND CHANGE HAPPENS AND PEOPLE COME AND GO AND YOU ARE EITHER “IN IT” OR WATCHING IT ….
Way back when..once upon a time….I had BIG plans…”I will make him a book, collect all of his “FIRST DAY’S” compile them in a neat little package!!!”…but alas…those sentimental projects are lost in the living. Maybe one day, maybe when he has a child go to kindergarten ..when he and I share the moment…BUT …not today….now now….
The hardest lesson I have learned as a parent is that despite the fact that we are both looking at LIFE square in the face from the same sofa….the view from where HE sits and where I sit are vastly different…and aways will be.
I love my son so much and I am so very proud of who he has grown up to be. I could ask for no more than the joy of being his Mom…
TATE IS ON HIS WAY…
I DONE GOOD AND HE IS READY TO FLY!!!
WE WILL REFLECT ON THIS…
WE CELEBRATE!!! AND TAKE LOTS AND LOTS OF PICTURES!!!