Today I find myself at a loss for words. It is as if I have used them all up. I do not lie when I tell you I feel like he just got here. I know HE feels like time has dragged and dragged and that FINALLY he is at the end of his long long journey through school….but I only just digested the fact that his voice changed a few years ago That he shaves.
Parenting, for me anyway, exists in the absence of reflection . Every action I have taken has been for that moment and no time can be afforded to look back..sum it all up…take stock. It all just HAPPENS. I suppose one day…I will have time to pour over the photo albums and boxes of artwork…to look back but right now there is always something new to take it’s place and life keeps on keepin on.
…..so here we are and my little boy is all grown up and a Senior in High School. I could no more fast forward to 18 years from his birth than I can NOW imagine him 36 years old …18 years from now… and while I feel essentially the same as I did the day he arrived , give or take a few wrinkles and pounds… He has grown a lifetimes worth. His skinny 7 pound one ounce self is now a Handsome young man. It makes me just this side of dizzy. I can simply sigh and say Thanks.
This year will be one of BIG BIG changes. I cannot wait to see how it unfolds…and yet…I do not want the time to pass too swiftly. Buckle up and away we go!