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Goodbye

Monday was such a quiet day. 
The kids played and read, we had no obligations and I lay on the sofa and wrote a weeks worth of blog posts. 
I was so pleased with myself. 
That night I finally booked the flight to visit my high school friends for a girls weekend in Dallas, and I picked out the flights to fly home to see my Dad.
A few hours later, my Dad died.
I thought I had it all planned out, figured out, I thought I had it all done.
and then he died.
I am going to see him one last time today, though he won’t see me. 
I know he is with me.
But I wonder how long I will double over with the panic feeling that I
missed my chance to say goodbye.
It happens the way it is supposed to happen.
right?
I will hold off posting all of those blog posts for a week.
The last time I saw my Dad, he asked me to teach him what
“Pinterest” was. I told him it was where you could keep track of all of your favorite things.
For the next few days, I will do posts about some of my Dad’s favorite things. 
I know I should know better, but I am 100% positive now, 
that I thought my Dad would live forever.
XO
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24 thoughts on “Goodbye

  1. Awww… I’m so sorry for you loss Lesli. Thinking of you and hoping your fond memories will give you peace and comfort. I can’t wait to hear about your father’s favorite things.

  2. Oh I’m so sorry. Praying for you and your family during this hard time. What a wonderful idea to post about your father’s favorites. Remembering your fond memories of him will help get you through. Your planning ahead made me think of the verses in James 4:13-15. Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”

  3. I truly am sorry to hear of your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers during this time. I am looking forward to learning more about who your father was through your tribute posts.

  4. Lesli I am so sorry for you loss!!! No words will ever lessen the pain of a loss but please know that we are here for you. I pray you find strength and peace one day soon. I too just had a loss and it becomes sort of a mission to organize the heart in a way as it feels broken and lost. God bless you your father rests in the arms of his Maker now!!

  5. I am so so sorry, Lesli. I miss my mother and father very much. Think of them this time of year, as they had September birthdays a week apart, with their wedding anniversary right in the middle of that week.

  6. I am at a loss for words but I want you to know that even though you don’t know me you and your family are in my heart and thoughts at this time. I can’t imagine losing my dad and I really do think my parent’s will live forever….. in my heart I know they will as will your dad.

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